FERRET

Taught myself think small, is all,

can't think big no more, for sure.

All or nothing, black and white,

sleepy days and sleepless nights.

Thinking big is hard and breathless

thinking small feels safe but restless.

How to think big, big girl pants on,

fronting frightened brain, pantheon.

Deep brain jungle is the safest;

out there? Gasping fear filled spaces.

Try to think big, mind collapses

not what i once was, now, molasses.

Tried to numb it, fight it, bear it,

time to burrow deep now, ferret.